Home Heals

I take my early childhood story for granted, because honestly it’s the only childhood I know.

But I can't deny the trauma through which I grew to the person I am.

Early memories shape our stories. 

And I know you have a story.  

We all have a story. 

At the age of two I was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer, and my right eye was quickly removed. As a child I spent much of my time in and out of the hospital, so I would develop pet names for the nurses on duty.  

When my parents couldn’t accompany me into surgery, at least “Froggy Fred” was there.  

Childhood was filled then with all things fantasy and mystery.  I would call in teams of guardian angels to surround my hospital bed.  The Care Bear Angels were always at my feet, The Rainbow Brite Angels were on my right side (my blindside) and the A team (yes that A Team) would be over my head.  

I imagined that instead of a prosthetic, my eye was actually robotic, granting me X-ray vision

like Data from Star Trek with access to a remote super computer.  

Before Google existed.  I had fantasized about having a Google Eye.  

But eventually things happen.  

You learn what the word matriculate means.  

Growing up isn’t easy for anyone.  

Growing up being the “weird” one is a special kind of difficult.  

By high school I abandoned imagination for perfectionism which ingratiated me with the teachers.  The other kids were fine, if fine means that they taunted and socially shunned me.  Whatever I did I never felt like I could fit in. 

Because even though I kept busy with extracurriculars, I felt a deep longing to belong that wasn’t being fulfilled.  

I wanted so desperately to find a place that felt like home.

My family has always been a source of inspiration for me. There is no hiding in our family because all are welcome.  My parent’s take pride that friends will still drop by unannounced even if decades have passed by because no one is a stranger at the Girard house.

We live big.  We love big.    

We also don’t shy away from sharing our development.  

I had cancer at two, but my family raised a toddler with cancer. 

My siblings and parents were all processing the tragic mystery of my illness while I was going through it.